I just realized that when I say "I don't care how you look" to date you, I lied. I'm a real asshole and a lead on.
I seriously thought I could overcome physical attraction and go for personally all the way, but I can't. I honestly can't!
I'd have to look at you every time. I'd have to be with you every time.
Is it okay to be that shallow?
I honestly did think that it shouldn't matter, just as long as you're a good person inside, but it's not. I'm such a hypocrite. I guess that's why guys seem to be such jerks at the beginning and not responding. The whole "lead you on, you might like me, and I won't like you" kind of thing. Even if personality is the best.. you need SOME sort of attraction.
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I seriously feel like an asshole and a hypocrite.
I guess too, that I am young and that maybe I feel I could find someone with the whole package? (Not sounding too nasty/big headed)
I guess this is how it feels to break a heart. I just don't know whether or not other's feel like this because I feel horrible!!!
I am seriously sorry, though. =/
I just realized that when I say "I don't care how you look" to date you, I lied. I'm a real asshole and a lead on.
I seriously thought I could overcome physical attraction and go for personally all the way, but I can't. I honestly can't!
I'd have to look at you every time. I'd have to be with you every time.
Is it okay to be that shallow?
I honestly did think that it shouldn't matter, just as long as you're a good person inside, but it's not. I'm such a hypocrite. I guess that's why guys seem to be such jerks at the beginning and not responding. The whole "lead you on, you might like me, and I won't like you" kind of thing. Even if personality is the best.. you need SOME sort of attraction.
=/
I seriously feel like an asshole and a hypocrite.
I guess too, that I am young and that maybe I feel I could find someone with the whole package? (Not sounding too nasty/big headed)
I guess this is how it feels to break a heart. I just don't know whether or not other's feel like this because I feel horrible!!!